On the brighter side...

Okay, so I've remembered to take my pills for a few days in a row now.  Feeling pretty good today.  Decided to rearrange my sons room today.  Nice and tidy now.  I think he likes it. :D  Been doing better at my diet.  Trying to eat better.  It is hard... cooking for two twenty+ young males.  Lol.

I miss being able to include Domestic Discipline on a daily basis.  I remember a time when i didn't think i would survive without it.  Well, survive I do.  But i miss it a lot.  I hope in time we will be able to live like that again.  Nothing so powerful or sexy as my man saying that is enough and having my rear-end blistered.

I am glad he allows me to participate with spankher4real and get a little discipline in my life.  It helps some and I enjoy being a part of something that isn't home.

Now, to focus on my will-power and get it back up to where it was when i was pregnant.  I lost like fifty pounds or so when i was pregnant.  Got my A1C all the way down to 4.7 which is beyond terrific.  I tried so hard... to avoid a c-section since diabetic mothers tend to have large babies especially around the shoulder area.  So what happens... they induce my labor and i end up getting an emergency c-section anyway.  Baby was 7lbs 13oz.  He kept hanging up on something inside of me.  I assume my innards were not what they should be due to childhood sexual trauma.  Thanks to that bastard.

Anyhow, i am grateful to be feeling good.  The sky is blue, the curtains are open and i am listening to some of my favorite music.  It is a good day.  The guys are cleaning up around the outside of the house.  THANK YOU for that.  When we moved into this house it came with a lot of mess outside.  Needless to say, we haven't gotten rid of most of it yet.  Hopefully this summer we can accomplish it.  Good Lord Willing!

The view from the front of our home. <3