James and I had been together for a year or two. We had an argument one night and I refused to sleep in the bed next to him. Instead, I slept on the floor. The next day after getting some rest and thinking things over I started feeling guilty about how things had went.
I had been interested in spanking for several years. I was spanked as child growing up so I was familiar with it. I had read some novels and looked up a little on the internet. I ran across The Spencer Spanking Plan and it stayed in the back of mind for a long time. I thought it was a great idea.
I decided to write a note to James and tell him I was sorry for everything that had happened. I mentioned the Spencer Spanking Plan and told him I thought it might help our situation. He read the note and thought it sounded like a good plan as well.
That night I got my first OTK spanking as an adult. It was fast and hard and I didn't like it one bit. It didn't last long but had made an impression. Since then we have grown a lot and spanking has come a very long way. They don't stop so quickly now, and they have a build-up as opposed to the quick and hard smacks.
I felt so close to him. I was constantly turned on and wanted him like he was gonna go out of style. :p He literally drove me sexually nuts. The lifestyle was simply delicious.
Things have slowed down a lot. With a toddler in the house, a very small house with no inside doors to block noise... we have limited opportunity. Not to mention just plain old being exhausted from chasing a hyper toddler around. However, if we both tried a little harder, I know we could do more.
Being held accountable for the wrongs that I have done is not a pleasant thing while it is happening. But it is so refreshing to be able to face those wrongs and put them in the past and be able to move forward.
~Sometimes what we need, is not necessarily what we want~
